Day in day out esp with my current situation i tend to think of this more.
Which is that it is my greatest regret I am married with my hus.
He can be a happier person if he isnt married with me.
Without me he can prbably..
- keep on his passion of going many fishing trips with his kakis that was planned this year.
- spend a great deal of time with his audioz, monifying it like he used to do that every month, but i can hardly hear him talking about modifications for sometime..
- had a great savings to a substantial amount but he probably now penniless as he had strongly insisted of paying every single cent on our wedding ,this comfortable love-nest and those hefty monthly installment as long as he can afford from his monthly pay
- dont have to cope with my explosive temper from time to time cos i have this tendency of losing it without any valid reason.I had one terrible day which i cant control myself , i was screaming and crying out loud which collasped at a corner and after i had an attempt to grap things up and start smashing (He was there holding me tightly in his arms cos i probably made him scare thinking i might lost my sanity anytime)..almost to the point of becoming a ticking bomb.
for all the above.. he has sacrified and becos we became husband and wife.
I felt terrible for all these things at the same time I am thankful i have met him as there wont be another man out there probably able to stand by me as much as he is.
I am absolutely imperfect however he can accept me for the way i am.
Just want him to know that i love him as much as he loves me.
